dreaming again

oh man. I want her sooooooooo bad. http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=352999274285&ref=mf. She's the perfect sister for LUCY!!!!!

challenging weekend. God is definitely working in my heart, and with the intense desire to follow Him and give Him everything is seems my selfishness rears its ugly head even more openly.
I definitely recommend looking into the life of Keith Green. He is definitely a man who did not compromise and literally lived his whole life out for the gospel. The thing that just takes me over the edge is he died at 28 in a freak accident. In his short years of life he touched thousands, with his caring hand. He didn't shove anything down people's throats, he just sang love songs to Jesus and gave hundreds of people a place to live and eat and recover from this ugly world. Check him out-http://amzn.com/1595551646

A couple questions God has put in my heart this weekend that I've been dwelling on
-If I died tomorrow would I be known for loving the gospel. Is that how people would remember me? I'm certainly not there yet, but thats where I want to be.
-What is my goal(dream) in life? What is holding me back from accomplishing that? What can I purge from my life to reach my goal?

God is searching my heart. He is igniting me, but at the same time everything feels harder and heavier when He does that. Its so worth it though, nothing else is worth what Jesus is.

Provo Really is alive.

I've had a lot to think about lately. I'm so glad God brought me to Provo, and I feel like I'm finally, after 2 years seeing that God wants to consume me here. I feel like in the last 5 months I have really been able to dip both feet in the water instead of holding back. I had a long talk last night with an amazing woman named Joellen. Her faith challenges me in so many ways, she does jail ministry and trusts God month to month to provide for her and her family because she feels He wants her where she is and she doesn't let the paycheck guide her way. She is so full of hope and peace. She gives God's hope to so many hurting and deeply wounded people and yet she is one of the most joyfilled, laugh out loud woman I've met. We suddenly started talking about what type of work I want to be doing for a long time, what are the deep passions God has planted in my heart. Most jobs I take are a means to the end. I haven't really pursued a job because its what I really truly want to be doing, I've looked more for the paycheck and benefits. Don't get me wrong there is definitely a balance, but God is tugging at my heart in a new way. I'm praying about what God might want me to do be doing as a "career". Mostly meaning if money meant nothing, what truly inspires and drives me. Definitely the answer is people, and helping people. I'm not sure what that looks like and that could honestly be a position in the hospital no doubt. I always have to keep reminding myself no matter where you are, you are in ministry, sometimes you just have to do some computer work along with it. Its amazing we can grow closer to God everyday and that won't stop til the day we die. We won't ever understand everything about God and how He moves in our hearts, but He is so real and intimate and I love when He slowly uncovers my eyes to see things a bit more in His view.

Thank you

I wanted to write a quick post thanking everyone for the amazing birthday wishes and celebration! I had such a wonderful weekend, which carried into Monday night with a surprise party planned by my one and only amazing hubby! I didn't have a clue, and so many warm wonderful friends were there to celebrate. I am so grateful for the caliber of people God has put in my life. I'll post pictures soon!! Have a wonderful Tuesday, I've got a full day of work, then taking Lucy to the vet for shots and then women's group where I get to teach. Super excited about what God has for us tonight.

Short week.

It was a bittersweet weekend. We had to say goodbye to our dear friend Devin Shepherd, who joined the coast guard. He left for boot camp today. His wife Chianne is staying in Utah for the next 8 weeks, then he comes back for 5 days. After that they leave together to go to a coast somewhere and start their new life. I'm hoping sometime during the 5 days he's back we'll get some Killer Bunnies in and maybe a grand adventure to top it all off. Chianne and I have been close friends over the past few years. We've had each other to lean on through several stages of life. We worked together, lived together, been on road trips, we were in each other's weddings and she's been my hair dresser basically since I've known her. It'll be hard to say goodbye more permanently in the next couple months, but that's how it is, so you just have to keep your chin up. I'm excited for them and pray that God will protect them and ultimately use them to build His kingdom where ever they end up. If we want to read more about their journey visit DevinandChianne.blogspot.com.
The remainder of the weekend was spent relearning how to rollerblade, but this time with a dog pulling me around, not as easy as Caesar makes it look. Also got a bit of cleaning done, groceries and relaxation.
I'm obsessed with a show on Sunday nights called, "Undercover Boss". Since Caleb and I don't have tv we went to my parents and watched it. We all sat on the couch watching a CEO of a major corporation get down on our level and see what we do everyday, while Lucy and Trickr run around like hooligans. Some how that fascinates me. It was a good way to end the weekend.
I'm excited for this week because its a short week! Caleb's birthday is on Friday and we're gonna take the day off and I'm stoked to celebrate with drinks and friends. It'll be nice to have a weekend full of family and celebration, especially for my darling husband. He is such an amazing leader and man and I'm so thankful God brought us together.

I'm ready for sun and warmth. These dreary days can pass us by.

no more gray please.

I LOVE this wallpaper. Its so gorgeous. And of course you should definitely own a typewriter if you have this wallpaper. Something like this could really brighten up a room. hmmm, ideas ideas!
Today I've been daydreaming about taking a short road trip to see a show, hopefully The Temper Trap, but I'm kind of open to whatever. I think spring being around the corner is making me antsy and going on a road trip right before the weather starts turning good seems like the best solution. Winter is pretty much over, or I don't really care about acknowledging it anymore, either way, its time to get out of here and see some new scenery, even if its a quick romp.

"Soldier on, soldier on, keep your heart close to the ground."